Boy oh boy it’s been one of those days! One of those days when you have NO motivation, and your STARVING to death or at least you make yourself believe you are, even though you have enough stockpile on your ass and thighs to survive for at least a year… at least!! No motivation is the worst, and even though I got a few things done today, I just wanna lay in bed with my cookies and watch movies.
On days like these I always look for something to comfort me, and those things always lead me to the kitchen! I would kill… KILL… for a pizza right about now, but instead of committing murder I just downed an apple! An apple? What a pitiful replacement for a pizza! Mmmmm pizza….
Thank goodness for you all reading this blog and liking it (just had to correct my spelling, I wrote lick instead of like, go figure! Ice cream cones anyone?) because without you all I would of probably went crazy and ate everything I could find today, and even though the day is not over and there is plenty of time left for me to fuck up, I have confidence (which is rare these days) that I will succeed. So at least for now (it’s only been a week) this blog is holding me accountable, which was the original idea!
Random thought... The Kardashian’s are on my TV in the background and I would just like to say that Khloe Kardashian is gorgeous to me. I can’t stand when people call her the “fat” one… seriously? Her sisters are like the luckiest Skinny B’s in the world… who has bodies like that? And poor Khloe has to be compared to them ALL the time. Not to mention that TV adds weight, which means her skinny sisters are even skinnier in real life!! Khloe is freakin TALL, and a curvaceous hottie, and curvaceous is not a nice word for fat, it means you’re SEXY as hell! I sure as hell have issues with my weight BUT I have no issues with the curves I was given! I just needed to get that out because I HATE that we are all compared to someone else! Compare me to NO ONE, because I am a damn individual and that’s the way we were all made! Ok… I’m done… for now!!
Just hoping to get through this day and that tomorrow will be easier… I always find that after eating and doing whatever I want (such as going to the beach and pigging out) it takes three hard days of getting back on track to feel ok again. Out of those three days the 3rd always seems to be the hardest for me, and today just so happens to be my 3rd day back on track! I just need to breathe and focus on my goal!
Good job! ;( I hate those days where I have no motivation and am cravin freakin pizza. You'll feel better tomorrow when you wake up and know you dont have to work 1000000x harder. And like you freakin hate how they call Khole fat. I would do anything to have her body! -steph
ReplyDeleteFunny how something as simple as words can mean something to people (they aren't really that simple). I know exactly where you are coming from, even though I am not at the place you are yet and have many years on you. I know exactly what I am suppose to do to be healthy but I don't do it and can't figure out why. I even have a disease (MS) that would benefit from it. Reading your blog makes me feel not alone even though I know I am not the only one out there with this issue I still feel that I am....so thank you. Keep up the good work and I will be reading!
ReplyDeleteP.S. I love my curves and wouldn't give my boobs up for the world. I wouldn't mind them lifted. Man having kids is hard on the body.
So glad that you can find some help through this... even if its just to know that your not alone! And girl... I know exactly what your saying about the boobies!! :)
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