Sun, sand, and Self indulgence

Ok ok... first I have to say I was thrilled to see that so many of you liked my rambling and were looking forward to more posts, however I did mention that I hoped no one would really read it because I was a bit embarrassed. Now I’m taking that all back, yep I am! Why? Because now I’m realizing that you all liked it so much that I’m gonna have to be a good girl and keep writing this damn thing! I just added another unpaid job to my resume, personal entertainment/inspiration for all of you… geez what did I go and do?

Second, I apologized in advance in my first post about being a failure and that I too would fail at this blog and it only too me… what?... a day to fail! I haven’t posted in four days… FAIL! So much for “this is going to make me accountable by posting every few days if not daily” crap! Oops! My excuse is... if I can make an excuse? Which I can because it’s my blog and I get to do whatever I want! My excuse is that I have had a lot of photography work to do and money rules the world… and until you all start writing me checks or send me money via PayPal I have to get some “real” work done first! I can send you my PayPal user info if you want to donate!


Now that I have plugged PayPal for free let me give you an update. I’m currently typing this from my hotel room beach side with a belly full of Mo’s fish & chips, cold stone creamery, and to top it all of beer at my waist side! So I’m just wondering who was supposed to be holding me accountable again?? Answer: YOU!!!


When I put up my first post I got so many great comments! It inspired me to keep up the good work, so I headed to the gym and sweated my “balls” off, ate like a skinny bitch and was SO inspired to keep this all going. Enter the weekend… I decided that my “hubby” works so hard for all of us and it was going to be above 60 degrees (a.k.a. summer in Oregon) this weekend so I was taking our little family to the beach. Great idea, only problem is I have NO self-control these days, so if you put me in a situation where I have to make “good” decisions in restaurants and go work out while on a mini vacations it’s probably NEVER going to happen. Guess what… it didn’t happen!

I’m not sure why I correlate vacation and good times with eating and drinking. I know a lot of you can probably relate. Something about the sun out on my pasty Oregon skin just makes me want to eat ice cream cones and drink booze! Does Vitamin D give you the munchies or what? Of course I won’t blame just Vitamin D, I will also blame Vitamin “rain” as well. I think it’s got something to do with seasons? Yeah that must be it! Winter, spring, summer and fall… yummy! Oh I know what it is… I’m a food addict! Duh!

So now I’m feeling bloated and quality as hell, thinking maybe I can pay my scale off when I get home to lie to me!! See people… lost 70lbs and fail daily, just like I told you! Now I will sit and try to justify it by saying things like “I was on vacation” and “It was quality time with my family” and “blah blah bullshit bullshit”.


The one thing I have learned on this journey is to not give up! I may give up every few days, but I don’t give up on my journey! I always get back on track, whether I have a moment of failure or a week straight of failure, I always get back on. When I fail the little devil on my shoulder says “well that’s it you’re a failure, just give up and eat some cupcakes” at that moment I have to choose to smack that little bitch off my shoulder and know that just because I failed today doesn’t mean that I can’t have a brand new start tomorrow. Always make tomorrow your Monday! Confused? You shouldn’t be! You know exactly what I’m talking about… “I’m going to start on Monday” don’t pretend like you’re still confused. It’s like a requirement for going on a diet or starting a healthy life… “I’m going to start Monday”. So make every day you’re Monday, and when you fail on the very first day a.k.a. Monday (we have all done it) make the next day you’re Monday! BUT you can’t be a dumb ass and make everyday a Monday, which is NOT getting back on track, that’s just laying your lazy ass on the track which isn’t going to make your ass any smaller at all!! If bullshiting ourselves got us skinny this whole country would be toothpicks, so it obviously doesn’t work!

So as amazing of a time I have had with my favorite people in the world (my kids) on our mini vaca, and even having a success by getting in a swim suit and swimming with them, tomorrow is my Monday (it’s really Sunday but if you didn’t read the above or are still confused about what that means then just go have a cookie for me and forget about it) and I will continue to keep on truckin on the track of becoming a skinny bitch!